Tales of a Formerly Inadequate Fat Girl

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Industrial Reconstruction of Self

June 17, 2017June 17, 2017 Laura Bock classic alternative, gothic industrial, industrial, mix tape, music, playlist0 comment

Industrial Music. Hard-edged, rough and hollow sounds, most of the time with dark, smashing, in-your-face lyrics from bands such as Nine Inch Nails, Ministry, KMFDM, Thrill Kill Kult, and Front 242. When I hear these powerful sounds from my favorite Industrial bands, my insides quake, making me want to not only dance but to become introspective and examine where in my life I need an overhaul – an industrial reconstruction of myself. It’s a call to greatness that I cannot quite explain. Industrial and Electronic Beats have this effect on…

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Lead Paint

June 14, 2017June 17, 2017 Laura Bock friendships, letting go, love, musings, past, Relationships0 comment

“Best not to mix the past with the present. The present paints the past with gold. The past paints the present with lead.” ~Henry Rollins My dear friend, haven’t you learned by now that lead paint is deadly? While it looks pretty and shiny and even new on the outside, it is toxic. Lead gets inside and slowly poisons your entire body. The same can be said about toxic people. I can boldly say these words to you because I’ve experienced a full overhaul remodel of my…

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My Big (Fat Gay) Punk Rock Prom

June 3, 2017June 13, 2017 Laura Bock classic alternative, high school memories, mix tape, mixtape, playlist, prom0 comment

Let me take you on a trip back to a much simpler time, when we didn’t have to worry about adult responsibilities and the complexities that come with them. So please, if you will, enter into my pseudo-TARDIS for a fun trip back in time to… May 1990 After a long, cold winter, it was finally springtime in Northeast Ohio; the trees and flowers were bursting forth in all of their glory and the air was warm once again. I just turned eighteen and looked forward to graduating…

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I’ve Lost My Superpowers…

May 26, 2017 Laura Bock muse, writer's life, writers block, writing, writing frustration0 comment

My words are not so poetic these days. The words I string together that would drip with sweet metaphors and glided descriptions which flow in perfect harmony have been replaced with a blunt tongue and harsh reality along with predictable patterns and placement. Boring. Dull. Drab. Meaningless. There is nothing beautiful here to read. Not right now. Will there ever be again? Have I lost my ability to resonate, to touch the depths of another’s mind and heart, to inspire and motivate, to write anything of substance? It sure feels…

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Hot Fucking Truth Manifesto

May 18, 2017May 19, 2017 Laura Bock manifesto, on the fly, Relationships1 Comment

I’m so fucking tired of all these pieces I keep reading on sites about how to love this kind of person or that kind of person. I’m tired of reading about how love should look, or what to look for to find love. Sick. To. Death. So here is my very own Hot Fucking Truth Manifesto to express all the shit going on inside of me… I’m not looking for a man to complete me, or a man with whom our broken pieces fit together perfectly. I want…