Tales of a Formerly Inadequate Fat Girl

Depression Madness

September 23, 2017 Laura Bock creative writing, depression, mental illness, poetry, writing0 comment

The demons are after me tonight My own personal demons In my head Birthed at an early age They’ve lived here forever And tonight they are Twisting and turning Dancing and churning Fucking with my thoughts The logical processes in my mind Whispering in my ears Yelling in my mind Giving me tunnel vision They keep coming Attacking Have you ever swallowed your screams? Tonight I do just that The demons they are Suffocating me I can only scream in my head If I let this breath escape me they will Overtake me It’s…

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My Heart Could Use Some Glasses…

August 22, 2017August 22, 2017 Laura Bock 80's movies, love, Relationships, sex0 comment

I was just like any other boy crazy girl in my youth. I did more than my fair share of chasing boys around the playground in my elementary days. I loved playing pretend superhero games where I was the villain (mostly Catwoman to the boys Batman) and having them capture me. Sometimes I’d play the comic book heroine Wonder Woman and trap the boys with my “golden lasso”. We exercised our imaginations fully as children of the 1970’s. In the beginning of my high school years, I was attracted to…

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The Moon, The Stars, and You

July 29, 2017July 29, 2017 Laura Bock creative writing, poetry, writing0 comment

In the formidable Darkness of the night I gaze upon the moon and stars Reflected in the Sparkling water; The light of the moon Mystically magical Glistening like liquid silver, Rippling in the waves. You should be here… I gaze at the brightest star, And think of you… Your eyes, Mesmerizing as the moon and Tranquil as the water Hiding within a soul As mysterious as The stars themselves. I long to hold you Close to my heart. But you are like the stars — Sparkling and dazzling So near,…

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Industrial Reconstruction of Self

June 17, 2017June 17, 2017 Laura Bock classic alternative, gothic industrial, industrial, mix tape, music, playlist0 comment

Industrial Music. Hard-edged, rough and hollow sounds, most of the time with dark, smashing, in-your-face lyrics from bands such as Nine Inch Nails, Ministry, KMFDM, Thrill Kill Kult, and Front 242. When I hear these powerful sounds from my favorite Industrial bands, my insides quake, making me want to not only dance but to become introspective and examine where in my life I need an overhaul – an industrial reconstruction of myself. It’s a call to greatness that I cannot quite explain. Industrial and Electronic Beats have this effect on…

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Lead Paint

June 14, 2017June 17, 2017 Laura Bock friendships, letting go, love, musings, past, Relationships0 comment

“Best not to mix the past with the present. The present paints the past with gold. The past paints the present with lead.” ~Henry Rollins My dear friend, haven’t you learned by now that lead paint is deadly? While it looks pretty and shiny and even new on the outside, it is toxic. Lead gets inside and slowly poisons your entire body. The same can be said about toxic people. I can boldly say these words to you because I’ve experienced a full overhaul remodel of my…