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Distraction – Where is My Mind?

I have been a horrible blogger.   I went from at least one new post a week, to almost nothing. I feel awful about this. I have written, though, on my other website, Punk Rock Flea Market Lorain (PRFM Lorain).  So far it’s been a summer filled with lots of activity with building my business, getting the word out there about what PRFM Lorain is all about, plus the crazy chaos of my un-medicated mind. That last one has wreaked havoc, a lot – from spirals of over thinking to paralyzing apathy.…

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My Manic Mind

My mind has been stretched and skewed in so many directions lately. I’m tired during the day, but when it is time for bed, my mind races and won’t let me sleep. I struggle with this mania, and sometimes even try to make sense of it (which can be bad). My mind likes to make me over think and analyze everything down to the most minute detail. It blows up and magnifies the simplest things. It distorts reality. This mania makes me angry and I sometimes scream inside my head…

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A Lesson in Flying – I Want a Bumble Ball [poetry]

A Lesson in Flying is another piece from the archives of my journals. I wrote this piece before I understood the madness going on in my head, better known as bipolar depression. Looking back, I think this describes exactly what goes on in my head during a manic phase. Thank goodness I know how to cope with this feeling now, without drugs, prescription and otherwise. I wrote this stream of consciousness poem at work one day as I sat and stared at Bumble Balls bouncing around in the demo area in front…

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