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Distraction – Where is My Mind?

I have been a horrible blogger.   I went from at least one new post a week, to almost nothing. I feel awful about this. I have written, though, on my other website, Punk Rock Flea Market Lorain (PRFM Lorain).  So far it’s been a summer filled with lots of activity with building my business, getting the word out there about what PRFM Lorain is all about, plus the crazy chaos of my un-medicated mind. That last one has wreaked havoc, a lot – from spirals of over thinking to paralyzing apathy.…

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Spiraling Madness [poetry]

I decided to do some writing recently while in the midst of a depression spiral… this is the result.     The demons are after me tonight My own personal demons In my head Birthed at an early age They’ve lived here forever And tonight they are Twisting and turning Dancing and churning Fucking with my thoughts The logical processes in my mind Whispering in my ears Yelling in my mind Giving me tunnel vision They keep coming Attacking Have you ever swallowed your screams? Tonight I do just that…

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Sneak Attack

  Oh Depression, you sly fucking devil. I give you credit – you figured out a way to get to me this time around. Sneak attack. I know you were behind these recent events. You paralyze my reason. I’ve been living in a zombified haze of my normal self. I should have known you were holding the puppet strings, Depression. You make me hate myself and instantly regret things as they happen. I hate regrets, almost as much as I hate you. I feel so stupid for the things I’ve said…

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