depression life musings on the fly 

Disconnect

I’m feeling all kinds of “dis” lately – discord, distanced, disarmed, disenchanted, disappointed, disheartened, and most of all, disconnected.    I’m not sure if it’s my mental illness at work, brain fog, or just stress, that is causing this mental unrest. There are days my body just wants to shut down on me, while my brain whirs away at 100 million miles per hour. At night I grind my teeth, causing me horrible jaw pain and headaches during the days. I’m also living with varying bouts of fatigue and insomnia, leading to…

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depression Mixtape music 

Distraction – Where is My Mind?

I have been a horrible blogger.   I went from at least one new post a week, to almost nothing. I feel awful about this. I have written, though, on my other website, Punk Rock Flea Market Lorain (PRFM Lorain).  So far it’s been a summer filled with lots of activity with building my business, getting the word out there about what PRFM Lorain is all about, plus the crazy chaos of my un-medicated mind. That last one has wreaked havoc, a lot – from spirals of over thinking to paralyzing apathy.…

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Why I’m Destined to be Alone – NSFW

The relationship gods do not like me – I am convinced of this fact.     After years of not being in a (conventional) romantic relationship, I’ve grown used to my solitary life – and I love it. I come and go as I please, sleep diagonally in my queen-sized bed, and never have to worry about the toilet seat being left up. I can leave feminine products out on the bathroom counter, hang clothes and delicates to dry in the shower and don’t have to worry about anyone accidentally/on…

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