life strip club 

Dirty Illusions – Strip Club Rewind Two Years Later

A world of false illusions, fantasies, and lies; the confining walls of the strip club was the perfect place for me to hide.   I could be anyone I wanted to – a fantasy in my mind. For seven years, it gave me the escape I needed from reality, and most of all, myself. I do believe that this is part of the allure of strip clubs, aside from the obvious sexual titillation. I wonder how many of the girls that strip away their dignity and souls are living a…

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musings on the fly 

Cry Baby, Cry

I woke up this morning and cried. To be honest, I really don’t know why. It was a deep, hearty and physical cry. My entire body felt the earthquake of it and my emotions blew over me like a hurricane. My body and soul must have needed to purge itself of toxins.   Thoughts flood me with my past when cries like this come out of nowhere. I do my best not to get caught in the rushing waters of the rewind.   A few remnants of my past sometimes wash…

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life relationships 

Five Books That Saved My Sanity

I’d love to say that I am a bad-ass that has gotten through most of my life on my own – which isn’t far from the truth. However, I’ve had a lot of assistance over the years in the form of self-help books. Listed below are the top five books that have helped me muddle through and make sense of my crazy life, while helping me to stay on course.   1. Codependent No More – Melody Beattie   After I had my daughter and placed her for adoption, I went into therapy to deal with…

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