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Throat Punch

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    I’m normally a pretty laid-back and easy-going woman, but sometimes the angry, impatient, ballsy and raucous punk rock bitch I keep hidden deep down inside comes out to play.   When those times happen, it takes everything in me to not want to throat punch someone. No, I’m not joking. I’ve often thought about balling my hand into a fist and powerfully throwing that fist right into someone’s throat. Anger management issues? No – only because I’ve never actually done it – but oh, my fantasy life is rich…

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Masochistic Tendencies

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I want to rip my chest open and pull out my heart. I want the feeling center of my brain to stop. I just want to be numb. The people I interact with day-to-day have no idea of the complete fuck up I am. Or if they are aware, they sure do a great job and keep it to themselves. I live with extremes in my mind every day. Today it is just amplified.  It’s all part of the sickness within me. I know this. The demons I’ve conquered are banging…

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The Melancholies

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This case of melancholies I’ve been experiencing has gripped me hard – it is trying to pull me down to dance in that all too familiar spiral tango again. Is it bad that I want to let it take over and run its course? Sometimes it only stays a few hours, but this time it’s lingering, nagging at me, catching me off guard. I can still somewhat function in my day-to-day life. Depression knocks at my door now and then to remind me it’s sticking around. It likes to surprise attack me…

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