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And The Dance Goes On – Fall Mood 2016 [mixtape]

Every single Fall, without fail, my emotions start swirling around like fallen leaves caught in a brisk breeze. There is no rhyme or reason to it all either. It’s almost as if my mind decides to take an emotional dump on my logic and reason – thus bequeathing me with the daunting task of sorting through why I am feeling things I didn’t even care about not even a week ago. This time of year my emotions also like to rip open scars of wounds that (I thought) were healed. As if I didn’t…

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classic alternative dysfunctional family music new wave youth 

Morticia

Being a teenager who was into punk and goth in the late 1980s wasn’t as commonplace as it is today.   I was labeled a freak, and being that freak teenager under the roof of my Mom-ster was bravery at its finest. Finding my individuality and voice – and keeping it – was important to me; I did all I could to keep it and most of all, my sanity. My style, as my musical taste, was a menagerie of punk rock, post-punk, new wave, darkwave, and classic alternative. I loved wearing black…

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Disconnect

I’m feeling all kinds of “dis” lately – discord, distanced, disarmed, disenchanted, disappointed, disheartened, and most of all, disconnected.    I’m not sure if it’s my mental illness at work, brain fog, or just stress, that is causing this mental unrest. There are days my body just wants to shut down on me, while my brain whirs away at 100 million miles per hour. At night I grind my teeth, causing me horrible jaw pain and headaches during the days. I’m also living with varying bouts of fatigue and insomnia, leading to…

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