depression life Mixtape musings 

Hot Fucking Mess

I take one, one, one ’cause you left me And two, two, two for my family And three, three, three for my heartache And four, four, four for my headaches And five, five, five for my lonely And six, six, six for my sorrow And seven, seven for no tomorrow And eight, eight, I forget what eight was for But nine, nine, nine for the lost gods Ten, ten, ten, ten for everything, everything, everything -Kiss Off – Violent Femmes   It’s been a long strange ride, this life of…

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My Manic Mind – Mixtape Playlist

My manic mind likes to make me overthink & analyze everything down to the most intricate detail. It’s frustrating to live with this madness.

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depression life musings 

Waiting…

I’m holding on, waiting patiently for the monsters inside my head to either shut up or go away.  I’ve been religiously taking my new meds for 6 days now – a mistake? Maybe. The crying has stopped but my head is swimming. It’s funny because I do not know how to swim, only in theory – in my head. Perhaps there’s something to it because they say if you can do it in your mind the body follows. I’m tired of treading the waters of life – one big wave crashing against me…

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