I’m sure I’m not alone in this, but this time of year always forces me back inside myself to think and contemplate life and its many complexities.
Fall is my absolute favorite season, yet with this amazingly colorful season comes what I like to call The Melancholies.
This year especially, I fear the ever pending winter months ahead.
I think back to not so long ago when my dreaded enemy, Depression, had me in its wicked and relentless grip, refusing to release me. I even resorted to going back on head meds -- albeit that was a very short time under their spell due to the cost of the medication.
I finally beat my unbearable adversary Depression and his close friend Anxiety with self-therapy of music and meditation. I still have minor battles with both, but alone I can conquer each of them -- it’s when they join forces I find myself at my weakest.
To bring some joy into my life, I took my big $10 winnings from my sales meeting at work to Target and spent it all on a box of Feria hair color in Violet Vixen. Since my hair had some red leftover from my last coloring, the violet combined to make a stunning burgundy color -- Brooding Burgundy I like to call it. It fits my mood and is a good way to describe myself during autumn.
As part of my fall ritual, I always prepare a Fall Mood playlist, which is always filled with songs that have a more somber sound. Songs of longing, unrequited love, and loss make up most of the themes in my Fall Mood playlist -- and almost always are by classic alternative artists, with a few ambient, new age style artists thrown in to help with the mood.
It’s been the subject of scientific studies that listening to somber and even depressing music can, in fact, help you overcome those emotions. For me, especially, the music feeds and brings more creative ideas into my mind.
This is a power packed 50 song playlist with greats like Depeche Mode, The Cure, Peter Murphy, Siouxsie, Nine Inch Nails, Dead Can Dance, Tom Waits, and Nick Cave, plus so much more. So light up a clove cigarette (or vape it, like I do now), queue up this playlist and get ready for a musical journey into The Melancholies.
- En Zum -- Cirque du Soleil
- Love Song for a Vampire -- Annie Lennox
- Whiter Shade of Pale -- Sarah Brightman
- Porcelain -- Moby
- Nothing’s Impossible -- Depeche Mode
- A Strange Kind of Love -- Peter Murphy
- One More Time -- The Cure
- The Last Beat of My Heart -- Siouxsie & the Banshees
- Possession -- Sarah McLaughlin
- Milk -- Garbage
- Fade into You -- Mazzy Star
- Sweet Jane -- Cowboy Junkies
- I Hope I Don’t Fall in Love with You -- Tom Waits
- Into My Arms -- Nick Cave
- I Don’t Need a Hero -- Concrete Blonde
- Linger -- The Cranberries
- Lonely in Your Nightmare -- Duran Duran
- Principles of Lust -- Enigma
- The Carnival is Over -- Dead Can Dance
- Song to the Siren -- This Mortal Coil
- Angel -- Massive Attack
- Karma Police -- Radiohead
- Wonderwall -- Oasis
- Let Me Love You -- Peter Murphy
- Down By The Water -- P J Harvey
- Don’t Give Up -- Peter Gabriel & Kate Bush
- Feel So Different -- Sinead O’Connor
- Bullet With Butterfly Wings -- Smashing Pumpkins
- One -- U2
- Ailein Duinn -- Karen Matheson
- I Will Find You -- Clannad
- Only Time -- Enya
- Sweet Lullaby -- Deep Forest
- Deliver Me -- Sarah Brightman
- Nothing Else Matters -- Gregorian
- The Mummers Dance -- Loreena McKennitt
- No Ordinary Love -- Sade
- Why -- Annie Lennox
- Wonderful -- Adam Ant
- Stay -- Shakespeare’s Sister
- I Drove All Night -- Cyndi Lauper
- My Immortal -- Evanescence
- Wicked Game -- Chris Issac
- Alison -- Elvis Costello
- It’s No Good -- Depeche Mode
- Love You To Death -- Type O Negative
- Coma White -- Marilyn Manson
- Something I Can Never Have -- Nine Inch Nails
- Same Deep Water As You -- The Cure
- (I’ll Love You) Til the End of the World -- Nick Cave