Waiting…

patiently waitingI’m holding on, waiting patiently for the monsters inside my head to either shut up or go away. 

I’ve been religiously taking my new meds for 6 days now – a mistake?

Maybe.

The crying has stopped but my head is swimming. It’s funny because I do not know how to swim, only in theory – in my head. Perhaps there’s something to it because they say if you can do it in your mind the body follows.

I’m tired of treading the waters of life – one big wave crashing against me is all it will take to pull me under and drown me.

My cries are silent but inside my head is screaming and noise – white noise – trying to decipher the words of my saving grace.

Today I hit the wall. I am one step away from breaking down – or salvation.