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Waiting…

June 5, 2015November 13, 2019 Laura Bockanxiety, depression, frustration, head meds0 comment

I’m holding on, waiting patiently for the monsters inside my head to either shut up or go away. I’ve been religiously taking my new meds for 6 days now – a mistake? Maybe. The crying has stopped but my head is swimming. It’s funny because I do not know how to swim, only in theory – in my head. Perhaps there’s something to it because they say if you can do it in your mind the body follows. I’m tired of treading the waters of life – one big wave crashing against me…

depression life on the fly

Depression: Excuse me while I silently scream

May 30, 2015March 24, 2021 Laura Bockanti-depressants, anxiety, depression, head meds, rage, self-doubt2 Comments

Being powerful and strong means having the courage to admit when things are out of control and you need help with your depression.

dysfunctional family life

Imaginary Meeting with Mom-ster

April 9, 2015February 17, 2017 Laura Bockdepression, dysfunctional family, mom-ster2 Comments

Lately I’ve had this urge to stop and see my Mom-ster. I’m really not sure why. I know it’s best to not have any contact with her because she’s so toxic. Maybe I’m a glutton for punishment and I want to continue spiraling down into an even deeper depression than I’ve been in the midst of lately. Perhaps I’m hoping for a miracle that I’ll finally have a relationship with Mom-ster that parallels those of my friends who have great relationships with their mothers’. Either way, I’m living in a…