depression life musings 

Waiting…

I’m holding on, waiting patiently for the monsters inside my head to either shut up or go away.  I’ve been religiously taking my new meds for 6 days now – a mistake? Maybe. The crying has stopped but my head is swimming. It’s funny because I do not know how to swim, only in theory – in my head. Perhaps there’s something to it because they say if you can do it in your mind the body follows. I’m tired of treading the waters of life – one big wave crashing against me…

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Screaming_Pain_by_Phosu depression life on the fly 

Depression: Excuse me while I silently scream

Being powerful and strong means having the courage to admit when things are out of control and you need help with your depression.

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writer bizarro dysfunctional family life 

Imaginary Meeting with Mom-ster

Lately I’ve had this urge to stop and see my Mom-ster. I’m really not sure why. I know it’s best to not have any contact with her because she’s so toxic. Maybe I’m a glutton for punishment and I want to continue spiraling down into an even deeper depression than I’ve been in the midst of lately. Perhaps I’m hoping for a miracle that I’ll finally have a relationship with Mom-ster that parallels those of my friends who have great relationships with their mothers’. Either way, I’m living in a…

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