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Peace of mind can’t be bought…

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I found treasure not where I thought Peace of mind can’t be bought Still, I believe   Just hang on Suffer well Sometimes it’s hard It’s hard to tell     It is winter, but there is no snow – not yet at least. Usually, it is the snow, with its cold, lingering drab and grey dullness that causes my mood to drop into a downward spiral. Not this year. While we’ve been blessed with many sunny days and warmer than usual temperatures so far this winter, my body and mind…

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high cost of healthcare depression life rants 

The Struggle of (Un)Affordable Healthcare

Laura Bock, , , , , 2 Comments

  Mental illness runs in my family, especially depression.   My mother described herself over the years as being “manic depressive” – I do not argue that fact with her. From what I can gather, her mother was also depressed. My mother refuses to take meds for her depression, and if anyone in the history of man should take meds, it should be her. I have dealt with depression issues since childhood. I was always a social butterfly, but still very much withdrawn. I never disclosed to my friends the…

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depression life on the fly 

I’m (not) Fine.

Laura Bock, , , , 0 comment

I am here. Again. The pit of depression. Paralyzed by self-doubt. Cut off from action. Not giving a good god damn about anything. I cry but no one sees or hears me behind my closed off doors of seclusion. Thoughts of self-destruction run rampant once again in my mind. Pain is the only thing real right in this moment. Choked up with tears streaming down my face, I am a fucking mess. I gasp for air as I fight back wanting to burn or cut my flesh open. A bloodletting…

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