classic alternative depression life music 

I’m Fine.

I’ve been wanting to write this piece for over a year now, but kept putting it off because I didn’t want to bring these realities to life, or to revisit them. After further consideration, I believe these are things that need to be said. I’ve seen the countless memes, the series of photos about mental illness in general, but more specifically depression and anxiety, and I always share them so others know the struggle – but it is just a mere glimpse into the black hole of the abyss. So here…

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life music on the fly punk 

I Could Be Wrong, I Could Be Right

rise /rīz/   verb 1. move from a lower position to a higher one; come or go up. “the tiny aircraft rose from the ground”   noun 1. an upward movement; an instance of becoming higher. “the bird has a display flight of steep flapping rises”     I’m officially on vacation from work until January 4th. I’m still waiting for that fact to connect in my brain. All I keep thinking of are the deadlines approaching the week I return to work, causing me to stress and wonder if I should work…

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depression life on the fly 

I’m (not) Fine.

I am here. Again. The pit of depression. Paralyzed by self-doubt. Cut off from action. Not giving a good god damn about anything. I cry but no one sees or hears me behind my closed off doors of seclusion. Thoughts of self-destruction run rampant once again in my mind. Pain is the only thing real right in this moment. Choked up with tears streaming down my face, I am a fucking mess. I gasp for air as I fight back wanting to burn or cut my flesh open. A bloodletting…

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