life musings 

My Alter-Ego – Lucretia [NSFW]

It’s funny the things you run across when going through old journals and files.     Back in the 1990’s, before BDSM went mainstream through venues such as Hot Topic and with atrocities of so-called literature like Fifty Shades, I was known to some as the Mistress Lucretia. I was a twisted, somewhat sadistic, yet very affectionate, caring and sensual Dominant.   Although these days I resonate more as a switch than a Dominant – which simply means I enjoy both sides of the coin, Dominant and submissive – Lucretia still resides in the…

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life strip club 

Dirty Illusions – Strip Club Rewind Two Years Later

A world of false illusions, fantasies, and lies; the confining walls of the strip club was the perfect place for me to hide.   I could be anyone I wanted to – a fantasy in my mind. For seven years, it gave me the escape I needed from reality, and most of all, myself. I do believe that this is part of the allure of strip clubs, aside from the obvious sexual titillation. I wonder how many of the girls that strip away their dignity and souls are living a…

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life musings relationships 

Duality Inside – Deviant vs. Normal [NSFW]

Deviance: the fact or state of departing from usual or accepted standards, especially in social or sexual behavior.     We are all deviants. We go against the norm in some way, shape or form. We break rules. We say things that we know might hurt someone. Some of us even have kinky sex. I used to be a sexual deviant in my younger and more foolish days; of course what was deviant back then is now almost commonplace today. Back in these darker, more deviant days, along with being…

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musings poetry 

Chauffeur [Poetry] – From the Archives

  This poem is from many years ago, back during a time when my writings had a darker voice and came from a more deviant side of myself… Chauffeur   I will drive you head first screaming sobbing whimpering into the darkness which is My domain tapping into the forbidden regions of your mind… your lusts… into your uncontrollable desires twisting and turning you inside out… I am your designated driver into the unknown, come with Me… if you dare  

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