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Want – Fall Mood 2017 Mixtape

Want – both a noun and a verb meaning to desire for someone or something. Want Need Crave Hunger Thirst I have a want, a hunger deep inside my being for raw passion shared with another. I thirst for adventure, to go to unknown places, yet I am content in the peaceful stillness of the night, with the crickets singing and bright moonlight shining down. My want has become an almost all-consuming fire inside of me. Thinking that this hunger, this want would convert into creative energy and propel me further with…

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Industrial Reconstruction of Self

Industrial Music. Hard-edged, rough and hollow sounds, most of the time with dark, smashing, in-your-face lyrics from bands such as Nine Inch Nails, Ministry, KMFDM, Thrill Kill Kult, and Front 242.   When I hear these powerful sounds from my favorite Industrial bands, my insides quake, making me want to not only dance but to become introspective and examine where in my life I need an overhaul – an industrial reconstruction of myself. It’s a call to greatness that I cannot quite explain. Industrial and Electronic Beats have this effect on…

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My Big (Fat Gay) Punk Rock Prom

  Let me take you on a trip back to a much simpler time, when we didn’t have to worry about adult responsibilities and the complexities that come with them. So please, if you will, enter into my pseudo-TARDIS for a fun trip back in time to…   May 1990 After a long, cold winter, it was finally springtime in Northeast Ohio; the trees and flowers were bursting forth in all of their glory and the air was warm once again. I just turned eighteen and looked forward to graduating…

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Dancing With Depression & Anxiety

  My nights out dancing at the 80’s music revival nights are bittersweet at best these days.   On one side I am enamored by the music of my younger, more carefree days. I get lost in the song and dance. At times I close my eyes and imagine I am still that young, naïve, and lost little girl, reveling in hearing nothing but the melodic whispers of youth, and a future filled with hope. When I attend these events, I almost always recognize a lot of faces – mostly from…

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And The Dance Goes On – Fall Mood 2016 [mixtape]

Every single Fall, without fail, my emotions start swirling around like fallen leaves caught in a brisk breeze. There is no rhyme or reason to it all either. It’s almost as if my mind decides to take an emotional dump on my logic and reason – thus bequeathing me with the daunting task of sorting through why I am feeling things I didn’t even care about not even a week ago. This time of year my emotions also like to rip open scars of wounds that (I thought) were healed. As if I didn’t…

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