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Sad Bastard Music

Many many moons ago I was young, naïve, and married. Not very long into my marriage, my eyes opened as to why getting married was a big mistake. Little things – or signs as I always refer to these happenings – started piling up into bigger things. One of which was my ex’s disdain for Goth and Punk music.  Ummm hello… who do you think you married? It’s not like I hid the fact I was different – my appearance made it more than clear that I was an “alterna-chick”,…

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Sentimentality & Introspection

I love the Facebook feature “On This Day”; you can go back in time and see how far you’ve progressed since the previous years. It also can bring memories back you really don’t wish to relive. Today it is making me somewhat sentimental. I sometimes wonder, when I look back to the days I worked at the strip club, if the girls I worked with back then, and yes, even Queen Bee, smile when they read the funny things we used to do and share together. Maybe they even miss…

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#1 Crush Mixtape

February – that magical mystical month which heralds in the last month of meteorological winter, traditionally filled with some of the coldest weather of the season. Isn’t it ironic that Valentine’s Day falls right smack dab in the middle of the month?  I’m sure you’re used to my writings dripping with cynicism when it comes to that holiday; Lord knows I’ve never really celebrated the day properly.  In the past, the only time I ever enjoyed V-Day was when I worked at the strip club – only because almost every…

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The Good, The Bad & The Ugly (pt. 1 – Downtown)

It’s been a while since I’ve written anything about my strip club days. I have so much material, but alas, a lot of it is best in spoken, rather than written word. I want to find an illustrator who can take my voice recordings of stories and illustrate them for a YouTube video series. I’ve also given thought to a podcast, but I really like the idea of illustrated videos, in a style almost like Blank on Blank. I even have a clever title for my series, borrowing from the…

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Negative Reviews

“Why is it that we only seem to believe the negative things people say about us, no matter how much evidence there is to the contrary? A neighbor, a face, an ex-boyfriend can cancel out everything we thought was once true. Odd, but when it comes to life and love, why do we believe our worst reviews?” ~Carrie Bradshaw, Sex and the City     Negative reviews… I’ve thought a lot about this quote from Sex and the City over the past few weeks, as I pushed myself through another depressive…

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