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Poser: Impostor Syndrome

Poser /ˈpōzər/ noun a person who acts in an affected manner in order to impress others. synonyms: exhibitionist, poseur, posturer, fake   Rewind back to the 1980’s with me… Remember calling those fakes who would come to the clubs or shows a poser? That was the ultimate insult in the scene! Fast forward to today… Ever since I got an email last week telling me that a piece of my art made it past the jury selection and is going to be in The Detroit Dirty Show (International Erotic Art Exhibition),…

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Morticia

Being a teenager who was into punk and goth in the late 1980’s wasn’t as commonplace as it is today. I was labeled a freak, and being that freak teenager under the roof of my Mom-ster was bravery at its finest. Finding my individuality and voice – and keeping it – was important to me; I did all I could to keep it and most of all, my sanity. My style, as my musical taste, was a menagerie of punk rock, post-punk, new wave, dark wave and classic alternative. I loved wearing black –…

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dysfunctional family life 

Imaginary Meeting with Mom-ster

Lately I’ve had this urge to stop and see my Mom-ster. I’m really not sure why. I know it’s best to not have any contact with her because she’s so toxic. Maybe I’m a glutton for punishment and I want to continue spiraling down into an even deeper depression than I’ve been in the midst of lately. Perhaps I’m hoping for a miracle that I’ll finally have a relationship with Mom-ster that parallels those of my friends who have great relationships with their mothers’. Either way, I’m living in a…

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dysfunctional family life 

A Letter to Mom-ster on Mother’s Day

    Dear Mom-ster,   Happy second Sunday in May.   I know you hate to be reminded that you are a mother, and despise all holidays, but I thought I’d write you just the same. I’m sure you have read some, if not all, of my writings about you by now, thanks to my ex-husband. If there is one thing that you’ve taught me, it’s that you should always keep your nose clean and nothing will come back to haunt you.   I’m no saint, Mom-ster, and neither are…

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A Barbie Christmas Story

It’s been said that Christmas is the most wonderful time of the year. How can it not be? Everyone is in good spirits; classic Christmas tunes fill the stores as everyone shops for their loved ones. It’s not unheard of to experience a Christmas miracle every now and again. It is a season made for children; seeing the joy on their faces when they open their presents on Christmas morning. Children smiling and laughing anxiously as they wait in line to see Santa so they can tell him all they…

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