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Lead Paint

  “Best not to mix the past with the present. The present paints the past with gold. The past paints the present with lead.” ~Henry Rollins    My dear friend, haven’t you learned by now that lead paint is deadly?   While it looks pretty and shiny and even new on the outside, it is toxic. Lead gets inside and slowly poisons your entire body.  The same can be said about toxic people. I can boldly say these words to you because I’ve experienced a full overhaul remodel of my…

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My Big (Fat Gay) Punk Rock Prom

  Let me take you on a trip back to a much simpler time, when we didn’t have to worry about adult responsibilities and the complexities that come with them. So please, if you will, enter into my pseudo-TARDIS for a fun trip back in time to…   May 1990 After a long, cold winter, it was finally springtime in Northeast Ohio; the trees and flowers were bursting forth in all of their glory and the air was warm once again. I just turned eighteen and looked forward to graduating…

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Hot Fucking Truth Manifesto

I’m so fucking tired of all these pieces I keep reading on sites about how to love this kind of person or that kind of person. I’m tired of reading about how love should look, or what to look for to find love.   Sick. To. Death. So here is my very own Hot Fucking Truth Manifesto to express all the shit going on inside of me…   I’m not looking for a man to complete me, or a man with whom our broken pieces fit together perfectly.   I want…

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Sad Bastard Music

Many many moons ago I was young, naïve, and married. Not very long into my marriage, my eyes opened as to why getting married was a big mistake. Little things – or signs as I always refer to these happenings – started piling up into bigger things. One of which was my ex’s disdain for Goth and Punk music.  Ummm hello… who do you think you married? It’s not like I hid the fact I was different – my appearance made it more than clear that I was an “alterna-chick”,…

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Sentimentality & Introspection

I love the Facebook feature “On This Day”; you can go back in time and see how far you’ve progressed since the previous years. It also can bring memories back you really don’t wish to relive. Today it is making me somewhat sentimental. I sometimes wonder, when I look back to the days I worked at the strip club, if the girls I worked with back then, and yes, even Queen Bee, smile when they read the funny things we used to do and share together. Maybe they even miss…

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