imposter syndrome poser dysfunctional family musings 

Poser: Impostor Syndrome

Poser /ˈpōzər/ noun a person who acts in an affected manner in order to impress others. synonyms: exhibitionist, poseur, posturer, fake   Rewind back to the 1980’s with me… Remember calling those fakes who would come to the clubs or shows a poser? That was the ultimate insult in the scene! Fast forward to today… Ever since I got an email last week telling me that a piece of my art made it past the jury selection and is going to be in The Detroit Dirty Show (International Erotic Art Exhibition),…

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MTV music new wave 

Sweet Dreams are Made of This – Music Video Addict

My name is Laura and I am a music video addict. I remember that wonderful summer of 1981 well. I stayed a few weeks in Pennsylvania with my Dad, even though Mom-ster hated when I stayed there with his family. She especially hated it when I walked down the driveway to visit “Auntie” in her mobile home.  I loved spending time with Auntie – she was funny and we would sit and watch game shows or her stories on TV. That day I visited her, Auntie let me watch TV…

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classic alternative music pop 

Don’t Change – Remembering Michael Hutchence

Today marks the 20th anniversary of the late Michael Hutchence’s untimely death.  I must admit, I was shaken when I first heard the news on November 22, 1997.   It’s hard when you lose a pop culture icon from your youth, especially when it is unexpected and in a bizarre way. There’s been some controversy surrounding his death – some believe he was murdered and others think it was accidental auto-erotic asphyxiation. Either way, the world lost a beautiful soul that day. INXS was one of my favorite bands growing up…

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classic alternative darkwave Depeche Mode gothic industrial mix tape music 

Want – Fall Mood 2017 Mixtape

Want – both a noun and a verb meaning to desire for someone or something. Want Need Crave Hunger Thirst I have a want, a hunger deep inside my being for raw passion shared with another. I thirst for adventure, to go to unknown places, yet I am content in the peaceful stillness of the night, with the crickets singing and bright moonlight shining down. My want has become an almost all-consuming fire inside of me. Thinking that this hunger, this want would convert into creative energy and propel me further with…

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depression musings poetry 

Depression Madness

The demons are after me tonight My own personal demons  In my head Birthed at an early age They’ve lived here forever And tonight they are Twisting and turning Dancing and churning Fucking with my thoughts The logical processes in my mind Whispering in my ears Yelling in my mind Giving me tunnel vision  They keep coming Attacking Have you ever swallowed your screams? Tonight I do just that The demons they are Suffocating me I can only scream in my head If I let this breath escape me they will  Overtake me  It’s…

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