Depression Madness

The demons are after me tonight

My own personal demons 

In my head

Birthed at an early age

They’ve lived here forever

And tonight they are

Twisting and turning

Dancing and churning

Fucking with my thoughts

The logical processes in my mind

Whispering in my ears

Yelling in my mind

Giving me tunnel vision 

They keep coming


Have you ever swallowed your screams?

Tonight I do just that

The demons they are

Suffocating me

I can only scream in my head

If I let this breath escape me they will 

Overtake me 

It’s the struggle of having this

Mind sickness


I did not ask for this


This eternal battle within 

and without reason

The silence

It falls with the darkness

Except in my head

It’s never quiet in moments like this

The spiraling down down down

Further and deeper

Just spiraling

Out of control

I want to stab them

Cut them out

Make them stop

I cannot follow a 

Complete thought in

These moments

I’ve been here before

I know the game and how

It’s played

I’m running out of options 

I cannot take this

Much longer

This madness has to stop

One way or another